A Line in the Sand

A friend of mine once said, "It's okay to draw a line in the sand, as long as you step over that line." Such a simple statement, but a powerful one at that!

For the last month, I've seriously fallen short of anything that I expected of myself. I got lazy, too tired in the morning to work out, and I started saying things like, "I'll start back up on Monday." After all, Monday starts a new week. Monday would roll around and I'd be too tired to get out of bed, too lazy to make a healthy meal, and the snowball rolling downhill FAST was getting bigger and bigger.

So last Saturday JC and I are at the church to get the Christmas tree up and get the church ready for Hanging of the Greens. Pastor Natalie, who has done AMAZING on her journey to a healthier self, smiled at me and said, "I haven't seen you at our meetings for awhile, everything okay?" At first my mind was saying, "Crap, now I have to face the firing squad." But you see, Pastor Natalie is nothing like a firing squad. She truly was concerned that something was wrong.

You see, earlier in the week JC and I had a conversation. I was going to quit Weight Watchers. I hadn't gone in a month, I was wasting money, and I wasn't letting it work for me. The supportive husband that he is told me it was ultimately my decision, but it wasn't in my best interest. Ever since that conversation my head and heart were speaking different languages. What was I going to do?

So Saturday I'm standing in front of my friend, the one whom I asked to help keep me accountable, and she was curious what had happened to the girl who was so excited about her weight loss thus far. If you know me at all, you know that I don't like putting myself into a situation where I get called out (so to speak) and I've always said that quitting is not an option. I was mad at myself. I was on the brink of not only letting myself and my family down, but also some of my best friends in the world!

I cannot quit! That wouldn't be fair to my kids, to myself, to the friends I've embarked on this journey with. It doesn't matter how many times you have to draw a line in the sand. What matters is that you step over that line and continue to move forward...and forward is where I'm going!